I never understood how they felt and why they subjected themselves in vain. However, I understood today. In fact, it has taken me these past 4 months to watch, wait and experience the one thing that I never could fathom. To know history will repeat itself, to be given false hope, to be put down in places you should never be at, to give it a second chance and to know that it goes back, ultimately, to square one again.
This semester of university life has been a bitter-sweet experience both mentally and physically. My only respite comes in the knowledge that I will be able to go away from all these and bring forth that girl who I pushed into a dark closet, shut the door in her face and locked it. She got me through the worst moments in my life and this is how I paid her, in full. However, she would never betray me like the rest and only she exists solidly in my sphere.
The soft sighs goes unnoticed in the wind, similar to every physical action that has transpired. In the end, it doesn't really matter right? Nobody would ever go that extra mile and all you have is hope. Hope makes us human, they say. Well, I am as human as I can possibly get where I hope for the best and expect the worst. That, has gotten me through every breath, every laughter, every tear, every ache and every fall.
Reality doesn't produced sparkling flowers. Reality doesn't supply you with endless cushion. Reality doesn't keep you safe.
Reality makes you stronger. Excuse the cliché; when you've hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up.
When you've been hurt, you learn from the pain and you make damned sure it never occurs again.
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