1. I'm done with all national examinations associated with high school.
2. The best of friends could have the worst of issues.
3. If you're not married to someone, STOP acting like you are! (I'm not referring to you Matthew dear. You're ALMOST family. ;P)
4. Having so much to do socially isn't VERY fun like some people say.
5. Exchanging stories about friends isn't the same with gossiping about people you know.
6. I like secrets but I don't share them.
7. Reading people isn't very hard.
8. I really hate cigarettes and its fumes.
9. Keep saying only love makes the world go round and I dare you to live without money for a month.
10. It's all work from now until March.
It's interesting how sometimes you think you know someone and one day you find out even more about the person. It comes to show that there is so much to learn about an individual that not even a couple married for 50 years may know each other through and through. This past month with STPM examinations going on has been quite rough. Academically, there wasn't an issue. It was the people and events taking place around me that really threatened to send me over the brink.
Firstly, dear beloved Heather Stouffer passed away a week before my examinations started. It is very hard for someone to lose a person you love so much half way around the world and not able to attend the funeral or even lay a flower down on the ground for him/her. I miss her so badly I thought I wouldn't be able to concentrate and study. Somehow, someone was keeping an eye on me. I turned up for the last day of school and the school counsellor gave a talk. I remember this particular line that she said to all the form 6 students who were there,
"There may be things that happen that causes sadness and grief to you. Push it aside first. Concentrate on your exam. You can come back to it and deal with it better after you are finished with your papers. You have worked so hard for 2 years. Don't let it go to waste."
It hit me so hard it made running into a wall dimmer by comparison. With 3 days left to go, I resumed my pace with Him gently nudging me in the right direction.
Then, Mae had problems with college. She was stressed to the max and she was on this murderous, raging spree if I could come close to describing it. I wished I could be there as much as I wanted to but everything turned out all right in the end. She's one tough cookie though she's all soft and chocolate-y on the inside. Yummy..
Friendship issues were next to pop up. I'm not referring to my friendship relations, Mae's or anyone but the events that took place made me take a step back to reassess my point of view on the word friend. It is still on-going and I truly wonder sometimes, will we mere human be able to fully understand something in black and white? Why do I see so much grey area?
With all these happening and facing books of facts to remember, it sure was a handful. I could go on and on about how God was there for me and guiding me to the end but I will sum it up. Thank you Lord. I can't put it any better.
I know people USUALLY do this whole monologue thing after the results are out and you KNOW how the monologue goes because you know what sort of result they've gotten. I won't conform and I'm confident in this knowledge. What knowledge? I'm sure that my results will reflect all the hard work I've put into form 6 since 2008. It has been 2 years full of trials and obstacles. Along the way, I've learnt some hard lessons and have been put in place.
Results will be good and I will be able to fulfill the purpose of my life. I do not ask for riches nor do I ask for a penthouse filled with everything I could ever want (though it would be nice). All I want is to see my parents' faces when I show them my results. SPM was a failure I admit and I'm sure I have redeemed myself with STPM.
So please, oh please, oh please, oh please, PLEASE, pleeeeeeeease, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee let my results be good.
By the way, Christmas is on the way. Done your shopping yet? I'm 80% done and torturing Mae about her Christmas present is simply amazing. Anybody interested in perfecting their present wrapping skills?
5 months ago
Pa: Do you want a Viva?
Yours truly: No, I want our Viva back.
2 months ago
Pa: I'll get another Viva.
Yours truly: Nevermind la. Why go through all the hassle? *secretly hoping*
Now
Peter: When did you change the car? Didn't you have like a Viva or something?
Yours truly: A couple of months back. Oh yea, have you ... *new topic which isn't any of your business*