It's Coming to an End.

3 years, just like that, have gone past.

In 2011, yours truly was an excited bundle of nerves. It was a new place and the excitement of an individual exploration was enough to die for. New people, new faces and new dreams were an addiction that thrived on the unknown and the possible.

In 2012, there was no end in sight. The lights, sounds and movements were one grey haze. Yours truly wondered if a year could ever pass by so long, would it be this? Learning was hard but it was necessary. Yours truly learnt that there was never an ending to learning. Even in the unknown and darkest moments, there was a lesson to be learnt.

Yet, now come 2013 and the world survived an assumed end of the world. It feels like a blink that after these 16 years as a student, it is coming to an end. The experience, while it lasted, was a taste you could only savour then and remember after. The people and places have become part of you no matter how much you deny and try to push them out. Time will tell for sure if one is now jaded.

In fact, someone unexpected shared a very beautiful story that just made that romantic in yours truly chuckle in the corner. Having parted with her first love for 24 years due to his family obligations, this strong lady never looked back and moved on with her life, searching for that which would make her stronger, better and happier. How would she have ever known that she would meet her first love again after becoming a happy woman? How could she have ever known that she could be happier? How could she expect that her first love waited for her, possibly believing in that love that they share? It is not to say that they have not loved and lost in that parting of 24 years, in fact, after 24 years, they understood love and lost. They saw what the world could offer and they never back down or compromise to what they wanted. To this wonderful lady, congratulations on your upcoming wedding! You will never know how much you have given to yours truly and thank you does not even begin to express this gift.

Looking back to that one night of shared stories, it has been a journey that feels very long but really short. Much has come and gone. More is to come and will pass too. 2013 feels like the end of a line, moving towards the starting dot to create a circle. When that circle is complete, another dot starts out in that white sheet of paper, encompassing this little circle of 16 years.

Responsibilities and untold possibilities are out there, waiting to be seized, waiting for you to hop into that boat. All yours truly want an answer to is: how have I lived?

One thing for sure, yours truly never wants to look back and hold on to memories and 'what ifs'.